Sunday, September 14, 2008

we used to have 1-2-3 living
the 2's and 1's becoming frequent
till 1's are all you have
and even then
when everyone important packs up and goes
for days on end, so bored of this
but you charge ahead like you are fine
till really, really you ARE fine!
but that "till you are" line
was so hard find
like a mirror you're reflective
i gotta admit
i feel it's all coincidence
and no real timing here at all
i had delusions that i should start writing plays
in my dreams, every line, every curtain climb
played out with emphasis and memory
end scene
but no one's really listening

so 1's become the same old quotes
2's are small ideas and anticipation tokes
but it's 3's when i'm really soaring high
then maybe skipping days
early, early mornings are the worst treachery of time
turn the tv on
to see the same news headlines
all of the time
and then i'm running on empty
here,
here's me
me running on empty

see the 1's are the days when i've forgot
2's are the one's where i'm no quite grasping at the perfect balance
3's mean that i'm trying again and still really, badly, wondering
for a shorter moment in the seconds and minutes
getting shorter each time

because it was always so fair here in the mornings
after learning new words through daily indifferent education
and small hours of tomorrow thrive on old sorrows
but really, who remembers?
it was this huge blow
but i kept going
seeking closure, never getting
so i'm here now
care explaining?
my resolution forces me ever forward
it's only my weak side who's running back

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