drafts:

8/20/08

i always wondered about your face
where do you sit and wait?
and do you think you're playing games?

spinning round like a dancer's neck
flowing slightly, staying up right
i don't turn the computer on at night

8/21/08

it's all in the songs that you'll never hear
you've returned to me
but you're never near

maybe it's all the same
but it couldn't be anything else
no it's never anything else

8/24/08

i want to translate the story
explain the upheaval
no control
for i've never had any control
every time it rains
days of grey
holding back the mind

when you wake do you check the weather?
so many people
but i blame myself

8/26/08

it's all because you were not strong enough

9/9/08

looking for reasons to bring up the name
but what isn't known is that the names are the same
i make a little mention about the dates and the times
i made a little slip up of the fate and the chances
but i remember how it used to hurt
'cause it used to hurt me so bad
now you're walking sideways
through parking lots
out of safety
out of line

because for living just down the street
i sure as hell see you less then all the other people i meet
the difference is i never want to run into them
i have nothing to say, nothing planned

but for you i'd have words
written down in a book and when you never thought i was writing
well i WAS
i was walking around past the end of our block
thinking "should i just give in?"
set the swing and hear the noise
walk into your backyard and forget all the ploys against me
the ones only just outside the yard

i'm drafting this

to hell with your new shit
and whether or not you think you fit in