sleeping in my own room
i dream about it every night
sleeping in foreign housing
dreaming that it never existed
and i'm searching for it in my dreams
it should be
it should be
right here
beside points a and points c

i need to document this. i smoke too much, i know. i need to get my shit together, i know.

i want the ending to be all drastic and reckless. like here, here take it from me! let go of all the baggage and write it all down. i need to finish it too, not just say i'll start it. no, no, leave it locked, leave it locked. if you open it you will see what you know you will see. you will feel the way you know you will feel. it will hurt you. so leave it locked. leave it alone.