not so tough

i need to document this. i smoke too much, i know. i need to get my shit together, i know.

i want the ending to be all drastic and reckless. like here, here take it from me! let go of all the baggage and write it all down. i need to finish it too, not just say i'll start it. no, no, leave it locked, leave it locked. if you open it you will see what you know you will see. you will feel the way you know you will feel. it will hurt you. so leave it locked. leave it alone.